About Me

Who Am I

Fibromyalgia is a drag. I was in the emergency room for the third time that month and as the cold steel of the needle slid into my arm I remember thinking, “I just can’t go on like this.” The pain was brutal, and nothing helped so getting knocked-out at the hospital had become my go-to practice when things got too tough for me to manage on my own.

My life was a repeating cycle of pain, pills, and depression, with regular trips to emergency for something stronger. A vicious, never-ending loop that I could not find a way out of.

Of course, I was very adept at hiding my pain. I had twins and a husband and a home to manage and career as a Sheet Metal Mechanic in HVAC construction. But it was getting harder and harder to fake it. I had to stop wearing a bra, the pain was intolerable. I could not wear any pants that had a button or belt or anything tight around my waist, so I became the track pants queen. I could not lift my arms above my head to do my hair, so ponytails and ball caps became my everyday look. What was the point in trying to look good anyway when all I ever really wanted to do was sleep.

I began drinking more then I should and neglecting my self-care. I stopped cooking and began relying on ready-made garbage and fast food. I was getting heavier and heavier, and I knew it was not the proper way to be taking care of my beautiful family, but I was just so tired. I knew the pills were ruining my liver, my anxiety and depression were getting worse…there had to be more to life then this.

Then I was in a brutal car accident and things got much worse. I lost faith in everything. My pain was unmanageable, and I spiraled into deep depression and total isolation. I could not leave my house, could not drive my car, hell I could not even have a simple conversation without bursting into tears (for no apparent reason).

I lost myself completely. All my self confidence was gone, and my thoughts were getting very dark.

Then one day I was online searching and praying for a miracle when I found a woman whose issues were so like mine that I could not get over the similarities. It was as if she were telling my story. When she shared her solutions, I was skeptical but frankly it could not get any worse. I was not taking the meds and I was feeling the lowest I had ever been, what did I have to lose? I decided to try it for myself, and I began a regimen that completely changed my life.

I am now 52 years old, still working in construction and most days I genuinely forget I have Fibromyalgia.

I have not had a panic attack in months, my pain is completely manageable, I am positive and upbeat, confident, and strong. I am back to my high school weight without diet or extra exercise, I look better then I did 10 years ago, and I have the energy of my 20-year-old self!